
So now I'm sitting here at Stord. The cafe is called News Café, and I'm enjoying a warm glass of latté (Delicous). All of the sudden I started thinking! Where is the joy? My life is awesome, I've gotten a lot of presents this christmas and to top it all of dad bought a Wii! But where is my joy? Why aren't I happy?
MAYBE: It's because this lady called me at work today about a coffe machine she couldn't get to work. I did my best helping her, but she ended up yelling at me (because I didn't know everything). But give me a break! At least I'm trying! Cut me some slack, ma'am! To top it all of she shared me her story about her husband having cancer and that she wasn't able to think straight. That stirred up a lot of emotions in me (hence that I for a year ago lost my brother to cancer). I felt sorry for her, of course. I really wanted to help her, and I did all that I could to help her. At the end of the day I helped her and she was happy to have coffee again. That made me happy..... for her.
MAYBE: It's just can't stop thinking about my brother, especially after I was remembering him the day before, by looking at pictures. I miss him so much! There are so many things I want to tell him. So many stuff has happened, many new cool bands and cool movies. There's even a girl I like. This is stuff I would have told my brother. Who can I tell now, without feeling awkward?
MAYBE: It's because I'm listening to sappy songs right now, wich always stirs up emotions in me.
All in all, I miss Lars. I wish that he'd live! Why didn't he survive?
All I know is that Lars is in a better place. I will do like Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego did when the new law in Babylon came. This is what they said after getting a second chance at bowing to Nebuchadnezzars golden statue:
"O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you. If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God whom we serve is able to save us. He will rescue is from your power, Your majesty. But EVEN if he doesn't, we want to make it clear to you, Your Majesty, that we will never serve your gods or worship the gold statue you have set up"I want to be like them. EVEN though things are not going my way, I will STILL look to the heavens. I will STILL seek His face! God is all that matters to me. Writing this is making me happy! God gives everlasting peace and joy.
AMEN